Wednesday, July 19, 2017


I had someone approach me at the mall yesterday when I was shopping with Kiana, and asked me if I experienced pain (I guess he assumed that because I was disabled that I was in pain, which is not true in my case) and told me that God could heal pain through prayer.  I was so caught off guard that I  wasn't quite sure how to respond, but it would have been a perfect opportunity to see where he stood with Jesus and to share my faith.  Instead I just replied that I was not in pain and that I prayed too, and walked off.  I'm not a quick-thinker / quick-responder, or a great conversationalist, but now after thinking about it for awhile there's so much I wish I would have shared with him. 

I had a man approach me a few years ago and, referring to my disability, he said, "I'm sorry.  Jesus doesn't allow suffering in this world."  He obviously hasn't read the Bible!  And I am definitely not suffering.  I look at my disability as a Blessing.  Afterwards I came up with a million things I wish I would have said to him.  

 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,  because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance." James 1:2-3

I've also had people say to me that they can help me walk better, or that God can heal me.  I don't want to walk better (except maybe to be able to walk again out in public on my own without a walker, like I was able to up until recently), and I don't need healing.  I was born disabled, God made me this way, He made me perfectly, this is who I am, I don't know any different, nor would I change myself.  

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:13-16

" And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

"For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Ephesians 2:10

I don't share much about my faith in my blog posts, but I love Jesus, and through every challenge, every victory, every joy, all praise goes to Him.   Next time a stranger approaches me, I pray to be more prepared; that God would give me the words to say.  Rather than see it as an inconvenience, to see it as an opportunity.  An opportunity for God's light to shine through me.  An opportunity for growth.

  My prayer is to glorify His name through my life.  

(See "My Faith" for more)

Saturday, July 1, 2017

The other night I was walking to the table with the butter dish. I jerked and the butter flew out of the dish, hit the wall, and landed on the floor.  Kiana said, "mom should never be a waitress." lol

Today she asked me to help her put on her bracelet.  "Hold it with you less shaky hand mom." 

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Preschool drop-off

My husband takes the kids to school every morning before heading to work, and I always do the pick-up after school.  Well, this morning my husband had an early morning planned so I had to do the drop-off.  First I dropped of Kiana.  When we got to the parking lot of Scott's preschool he said to me, "Mom, you have to take me to the playground, but I will hold your hand to help you walk."  Such a sweet boy.  I ended up waving down one of his teachers to walk him from the car to the playground since the path to the playground is not  accessible using a walker. 

Tuesday, April 4, 2017


Scott said to me that maybe when I'm older I can do Legos too.  I explained to him that it's not a matter of getting older, but it's because my hands don't work as well as his and that I am better at Duplos.  He thought for a moment then said that he could build the Legos and I could read the instructions.  I told him that that sounded like good teamwork to me.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Scott is 4 years old and is in preschool.  Yesterday we were sitting in the Costco food court waiting for Tim to return with our food, when Scott randomly asks me,

"Mom, what is wrong with your body?  Why do you fall down?"

I explained to him that nothing is wrong with my body, God made me this way, that I was just made to walk differently and that my balance isn't as good as his and sometimes I fall.


Friday, February 10, 2017

Sick day

A couple of days ago I had to go pick up Kiana from the school health room because she wasn't feeling well.  When I arrived at the parking lot they were waiting for me and the nurse walked her to my car.  Kiana had told the nurse that I used a walker and probably wouldn't be able to come get her because of the steps up to the health room.  I thought that was sweet of Kiana to consider that because I don't always use my walker. 

Thursday, February 2, 2017

I have been volunteering in my daughter's first grade classroom.  I really enjoy working with children.  I also hope, that my presence in their classroom as someone with as disability, will increase their awareness and acceptance of people who are different.  So that if they have a classmate some year who is disabled that they would reach out as a friend rather than avoiding or teasing.